realizing

• i just realize that reading my blog with this white font actually hurts my long-time damaged eyes.
• i just realize that everything seems boring and I'm here stuck with the wish that whatever it is that will unfold tomorrow will be according to my plan or atleast inline with it.
• maybe I need to make this greeeeen.
• Green, is safe. Really. Not just in terms of colors. It's hard to explain, really.
• I think I'm spending too much time at our house. Need to escape. FAST!
• No summer job, according to camille. Her aunt said it's a bit late for us, since they already have all the help that they can get.
• I'm so BAD in spelling.
• I'm Bad
• The radio keeps on playing the same old song! They keep on stinging my senses.
• Mtv and Myx can irritate me. wow. never thought that could happen!
• I'm a professional LIAR, to myself.
• I need to get out of the house.
• Djs manipulate everything on radio.
• I love Chico and Delamar, they are the only few that are worthy listening to.
• I'm dumb. I'm sorry. I'll make up for that.

For my friends I miss you all.

And please listen to Barbie's Stalker song... "Dahilan" I love it.

3 day week

MONDAY
March 27, ‘06
Starting the week right, yup that’s the main goal even if the freaking hot temperature seems to disrupt me or should I say, the people around me? Well it’s a little weird, cause I don’t really feel that hot. Well, warm air is understandable; it’s summer. So what makes the time worthwhile and useful? I just cleaned my bed. That requires soaking my plastic technicolor mat in a tide-natured-fresh-bubbled-water. (That is free advertising!) Yes, I’m not using a mattress since the day it dawned on me that here in the Philippines, during summer, could transform a car to an instant frying pan once under the sun! Besides, it’s easier to clean a mat than a mattress, or you won’t even bother to; leaving or mattress dusky and yucky during summer. I was actually asking for a native mat, the brown-organic-presko version of it every summer, but the wailing dies down when the sun got tired of showing up. So, here I’m again pleading for it. I also got the chance of reviving my tiny pillows (my Dao-ming-si-made-in-taiwan pillow, white-Christmas pillow and any-case pillow) to its original form. Lastly, scraping down all the dirt, grime and not to mention hair(Where did that come from? Sadako!) of our two electric fans. Surprisingly, all of this cleaning adventure did not even tire me. I guess it’s what they call, miracles of water! There is no exhaustion and no prickly burning feeling for me. My grandmother’s howling since this morning and boy it gets louder and louder by the time the sun strikes its strongest. I, on the other hand, seems ok. I think I drank around eight 500ml bottles of water and it’s only 6:00pm. Yeah, I don’t drink water on glasses anymore. This bottle-alternative is a lot better cause it tracks the amount of water I drink. So you see, if you don’t want to be caught wasted and dehydrated this summer, drink water, gallons of it.
TUESDAY
March 28, ‘06
I’m reading! Whuhu! And guess what I just came across this line that punch me so hard,
I bleed!
“If they have to wait an hour or so for the train, they fall into a stupid trance with their eyes open.”
“When they do not require to go to the office, when they are not hungry, and have no mind to drink, the whole breathing world is a blank to them.”

Damn, this is ME! If I’m so alone I feel the same! I thought it’s normal feeling, being blank and stupor for a moment. Ok, if you’re also guilty of this, inform me so I could get the narcoses, off me.

WEDNESDAY
March 29, ‘06
Afternoon radio!

Blast darkness

Yes! I did it! full Blast darkness and me, me and me!!!

First of Summer

First of summer

I just woke up, LITERALLY! No water and soap for me, yet. I really couldn’t stop my burning want to type something. Ok, so the first of summer is here. Yes, the first of the four summers I’ll be having during my college life time. It was pretty dull. I don’t have summer job yet and all. Hmm… to tell you the truth, I still feel stuck. I cant get the hell out of here or something. Like my whole body is perpetually cemented on a cursed spike wall. Ok, enough of that let’s move on my thanks and NO thanks, shall we? To every professor and teacher that patiently bare our whoops. * I have to type fast now, my lola just bought Japanese corn for breakfast. Ok, to all my blockmates, thanks for being a new face, new whatevers and newfound need-to-treasure friends. I cant fully say that my whole year’s full of crap. It’s not like that really. It’s just that I’m in college and no amount of security, that I had in the last twelve years, is going to cover up for me. I’m bombarded by the fact that my-long-time-established life is finally bidding adieu, well not entirely though. I now know where I’m going now, just hope they’ll let me in. The whole year is full of first of me. Blogger, epitome-of-perfect-indeffference, gay-crusher (it was only a night full of unconsciousness with COOKIE!) * Hale’s on MYX.

Tomorrow will come, Tomorrow will come, Tomorrow will come, Tomorrow will come
Tomorrow you’ll come Tomorrow you’ll come

Sorry, I wanted to make this a lot longer but I’m just too lazy right now. Blame it to the Japanese corn! It sucked all the powers and enthusiasm in me the moment I saw it.

THANKS TO ALL! HATE ‘EM OR LOVE ‘EM… HELL CARES.
Need to eat now.

did this last
Friday, 24th of March 9:31am

tapos.

tapos.

an end to it all.
say goodbye and fall.

I just hope i'll pass my economics exam. it was confusing though, but come on... i've spent the whole wednesday afternoon and 3 hours in the evening just for me to pass. Yes, im at the verge of failing the subject, thanks to the 61% that i had in my prelim exam! haha... You see one thing i've learned in college. Never fail prelim and final tests!!!

thanks to THOM...
i've prayed.
you've listened and work it for me...

sing to me NOW.

sing to me NOW.

tollgate + Hale + lyrics + 214 + Rivermaya + lyrics + first of summer + urbandub + lyrics

Tollgate
HALE
I'm leaving
I'm buckling tight
I turn on the radio
I'm driving out of sight
And i'm in the freeway
The lights are lost in your eyes
Things have been said
I'm lost in my head
It's time to go home
I'm moving so fast
I can't look back
The streetlights are changing
They mean nothing at all
Maybe i'm stranded
I'm stuck in this place alone
I look out the window
Tomorrow help me find
Let's call it a day
(4 times)
(instrumental)
It's over
I'm turning off the lights
Im stranded
stuck in this place alone
This day maybe filled
I'm here without you
and i dont have a clue
Tomorrow will come
(4 times)
Tomorrow you'll come
(2 times)

tollgate + Hale + lyrics + 214 + Rivermaya + lyrics + first of summer + urbandub + lyrics

241 (my favorite song)
RIVERMAYA

I want to live forever
Inside the nights and days.
Wishing on a silver cloud,
Crawling across the moonbeams.
A summer night in heaven
Between the stars and waves.
Race across the old bonfire;
Trample on my heartbeat.
I wanted to turn you on
My favorite song.
Wanted to be near you
But somebody owns you now.
I love you with a fire,
Ablazing till times end
But what good is a heart
When it shudders to speak.
I guess it's too late now.
"I wanted to turn you on
My favorite song.
Wanted to be near youBut (of course)
somebody owns you now.
(And) I tried to live somehow
Somebody owns you now"
(Repeat 2x)
Somebody owns you now


tollgate + Hale + lyrics + 214 + Rivermaya + lyrics + first of summer + urbandub + lyrics

First of summer
URBANDUB

Parked car
This night sky
Makes city lights shine like diamonds
our song plays on the radio.
We are living it up
Make this night ours
We own the world
I wish this lasts forever
Alone with you tonight
Further in you feels so right.
Iam giving it up and just a little more
This heartfelt leap
I surrender With arms raised tonight.
Drive me away
cuz the night just feels right
take me away with you tonight
anywhere with you.
Our song plays onParked car,
night sky
Alone with you tonight

if i could not make my life right, as in now, at least i have my music to back me up. i love music. i love your post (marice) hehe... this is what we are rational, emotional, sensitive being. you cant make me stop for being so. Please listen to my music.
i've read something in DAPITAN (ab lit mag)
julia robert said in Mona Lisa Smile

"you are not required to even like it. You are, however, required to consider it!"

sigh...

sigh...

hmmm.. im suppose to have all of my sources printed, but my fellow blogmates caught my spirit of rebelliousness and all. Ok this is not rebelliousness this is all about being what you are! you are created to use all your senses and critically analize if there is such a thing as order! YES! We are created to have an organize life... An organized life that is so hard to attain due to lack of thinking ability!


minsan me binatang naglakas ng loob para ipahayag ang kanyang hinaing...
bakit?, dahil merong mali dito!!!
subalit ninais nalamang ng iba na ikibit-balikat ang lahat dahil ito'y lumalabag sa mga oryentasyong BULOK!
Bulok na ugali tulad ng kanyang minsang nasakyang bapor.
Tila wala ng katapusan dahil walang nakikinig.
pero meron. meron. meron. meron.
hanggang saan hahantong ang pakikinig? sa utak lamang ba?
di mailabas...
tama. sa papel.
pero tila masyadong mapangahas. tama.
mapangahas.
at dahil diyan buong Pilipinas ay nagbunhi sa kanya nang lubusan.
RiZal ang ngalan.

dont get me wrong i love you thom but i dont like a lot of things about you! You made me! I made my self with you! i cant do this alone. YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR ME! you you you...
and me I JUST OBEY!...


one sucker's hell of the loser...
me.

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BROKEen BACK MOUNTAIN

BROKEen BACK MOUNTAIN

I never thought i'll bring my eyes to a lakey one... Now I know what real love is. No bounderies, not even gender. NOW I RESPECT GAYS! It's not that I don't respect them it's just, akward! Very conformist of me, still ... I remember what fresh said, "Gay or lesbian it's what you do that shows your personality." But PLEASE don't get me wrong I'm not saying that you go and be free... as in like BLUE BIRD SINGS... dont go change, just be what you are.
"no lust, just light, coz lust is just mere physical..." - ghost (parang ganun na un)

hearts broken but still love remains I love the story, the lines, the love and respect!

lovelovelovelovelove...

p.s. no one gets hurt if no one will provoke. no one will be if it's only because of thee. soon it will be over so just let love be spreed to thee... dont speak... silence... I WONT SPEAK OF YOU! peace and love.