sleepless

Sleepless. Blood Clot. Eyes wide shut. Suicide as they say.

First and foremost a BIG SORRY to my little vamp for not greeting him on his Birthday last January 24 ... hehehe.

*Jan 24
Ano mas matimbang... ang nakikita o ang naririnig?
-Jensen Ocampo

She asked me this while hotness and his gf is at the peak of their card playing moment... I was listening to Magic at that time trying to balance my damned attention to what Weng (bday din niya nun 24!) is saying and explaining for our script, to Migoy's antics and koski's inside jokes and finally at the sight of my graduating crush fooling around, playing cards and all. Di ko alam ang sagot! Whatever!
When we were finally over with our endless meetings and I'm already at home I just realize a very stupid thing! I lost Sam's mp3 battery cap! Eh Putik of all the things that I would lose why this? It's her lolo's gift to her mom and thanks to me that memory would be forever damaged! Nice one jenn!

*Jan 25
I didn't attend our meeting and decide to pay for the stupid thing that I've done to Sam. Unfortunately, there is no other way to replace the cap so she just have to tell the truth to her mom. Hay naku!
I did see Mongkie! He's alone... walking! Finally! Alone!

*Jan 26
I was finally able to help out in Tomcat after days of not being there! Sorry guys! Acads first!
The longest day of my life! After the Crossfire thing, we (Script team) decides to finish the script at Julien's house, meaning overnight! It was overnight all right coz we didn't sleep at all! I didn't even closed my eyes for as much as 30 seconds! Hahaha! So I got home at around past 8am and lay around my bed just to get ready for our Tomcat GA at 9am! Good thing I went there around 10am coz i was just on time before they start the EP talk! And guess what?!... the dreaded thing that I've told Joanna about a few months ago is finally happening! Manlumo ako! I'm sorry ah! I know it is a bitchy thing to feel this way but hell man I am not ready! And I have other plans for next sem and all... I'm sort of happy that it I got IT or just because they have no choice but me, either way I'm just so helpless... Para akong sinabak sa maling laban! Maling laban ito! I wasnt able to feel anything after that... Numb and Dumb for a few seconds. My body is aching and any resistance could mean death to me. I didnt say a word just nodded and asked for more details... ang dami pa palang details!!!... Patay na ako! Gusto kong magmura... gusto kong sumigaw... gusto kong magwala... lumuha... pagod lang ako kaya di ko magawa! I wasnt able to attend our PE class earlier HINDI KO NA KAYA! I'm going to collapse anytime now! Gusto ko talagang umiyak!

*now
the last time food passed by my system was like 14 hours ago! I just needed to release all of these... I'm not going to let my body dictate what I need or what not! I guess I have to get use to pushing myself to the limit now... And then maybe the early black parade could allow me to join them.

I tried so hard not to
Take down all defenses
Now Im learning
Maybe this will kill me
It's suicidal they say
It's suicide 
-"Anything for two" (chicosci)

Gusto kong makalimot

GUSTO KONG MAKALIMOT!

sa lahat ng nagdaang araw, sa lahat ng naramdaman, sa lahat ng narinig, nakitang masama, panlulumo, pagdurugo, gabing di makatulog, umagang wala pa ring tulog, sa librong di binasa, notes na di kinopya, paghingi ng pera, pagkain ng pagkain ng iba, pag-asa lamang sa iba, musikang inugyugan, kantang kinain, mga taong sinumpa, taong binalewala, taong pangit, pangit at pangit...

Ano??? Ano??? Ano ba tong tinatype ko?
huh?!

Me Amnesia yata ako!

Phantom of the Opera

The Phantom of the Opera is here.

Ohhwaao...
Pretty excited about this one. Our class decided to have a minimalist version of this for our finals on speech. Hehe... We are actually done with the flow and all, all we need this time is the approval of the directors and the actual script! We'd (script team) finished it, according to our timetable, a bit earlier which I think is great. I can see enthusiasm with regards to the projects... thats awesome! Im also excited for our MTV, PSA and Digital Story on Broadcom! Hehe... Butas nanaman ang bulsa! Anyways basta im thrilled, especially now that Tomcat's on vacation! Still! A productive way to burn time!

sabi nga ni Mark so,
GO GO IMAGINEERS!!!


"The world show no compasion to me."
-The Phantom of the Opera

lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off

Lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off.

Is it still me that makes you sweat?
Am I who you think about in bed
When the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as you're sliding off your dress?
Then think of what you did
And how I hope to God he was worth it.
When the lights are dim and your heart is racing as your fingers touch my skin.
I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me
Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?
No, no, no, you know it will always just be me

This is an overdue story.
Never would had happen if not for lying. Yes, lie for nobody cares. Be a great one.

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close

I was with Fhau last Saturday night just to watch a gig at Mayrics. hehe. I told everyone at home that I'll be doing a documentary, sort of, out of the youth scene there. Great liar!

So I guess we're back to us, oh cameraman, swing the focus
In case I lost my train of thought, where was it that we last left off?
(Let's pick up, pick up)

We're there at around past 10 and to my surprise the entrance would be P50 higher! NyeK! (I really want to say a big thanks to my tita for the money and all!) Plus, I bought a MiniDV tape before that... BROKE. I didnt know C___all__y was there! Damn bakit pa? Hahaha! But, they are pretty good! hehe I really must admit! Me' future, I mean come on... let's give those boys time to really find themselves. They have talent and all, It's just the content that needs reevaluation. The falloutboy cover was great then followed by Joan Osborne's "What if God is one of us?" They are ok. hehe.

Oh now I do recall, we were just getting to the part
Where the shock sets in, and the stomach acid finds a new way to make you get sick.
I hope you didn't expect that you'd get all of the attention.
Now let's not get selfish
Did you really think I’d let you kill this chorus?

But then Fhau left me at the middle of the performance due to that parent incident! What a crap parent! Should have said "excuse me". Whatever, just like Fhau said I'll be fine there. Alone. HAha. (The parents accompany a child who happend to like Mong! Me' pic session pa before the band start!) When koski's term It was Vampire's nightout, like an underground event something. Saya! hehehe. "Sexy back"... "was so, 5 minutes ago." just like Miggy said so they decided to play "my love" instead. Watduh? Mind you guys! The boys can dance! No words can really fill everything! that is why... I had my vidcam to capsulate The Moment, The... according to marice, Orgasmic Bliss.

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close

Perfect S.O. for that O.B.!

Dance to this beat
Dance to this beat
Dance to this beat

Let's get these teen hearts beating.
Faster, faster Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster

I went out right after everything and saw Fhau talking to Raimund. Wasnt sure why he was there but he said he's with Marvin and some other friend. Basta. Familiar faces huh!

I've got more win, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me
Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?
No, no, no, you know it will always just be me

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close

BTW. Hotness smokes. What about my promise thing in grade school?... that I'll never like a guy who smokes. There is an exception I guess or maybe rules just have to change over time. And NO Fhau you cant influence me to smoke! Hahaha. Just like what The-I-forgot-science-icon said when asked why he doesnt smoke, "I dont want to have another necessity."

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Dance to this beat
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Dance to this beat And hold a lover close
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster

Kilala ko na si MONG ng #_A#!!!!
hahaha...

Life's full of spaces, everybody is filling in! Sige lang!!!

tomorrow na ang pasukan!

hay... so... kamusta ang taon???
So Fucked Up... I havent started the year right! Shit!
I just wanna dive in hunger.

No Blood for me then.