Speak Now or Forever fall into Pieces
I have a problem with myself lately and I seriously think that a part of me is slowly deteriorating. Time is eating away scraps of essence and stealing up all emotions I should be harvesting from dear journey called life. Im wasting myself drifting to non-sense worries and drowning in lousy excuses to continue this dumb-numb I have become. I hope to address this as soon as possible. A friend of mine is actually praying for me and a few people are showing support (wow thanks guys!)
Last night my former boss asked me how I was. I said I feel weird.
I think ive become a complete introvert, I told him.
I wanted to blame this to a certain guy. Excuses. I think this is all inside me waiting for me to be left alone and unnoticed, and then it slowly creeps out of me and sips through my skin. Now look, im covered with thick mud perfectly molded in my image confusing people, even me.
When a kid utters a word, believe it. And I will and will follow it even! Hahaha words of wisdom from the kid guru! Thanks Kid!
The pressure is on. Oh but I am not the type of person who gets pressured by anything or anybody. I end up shrugging off things that come my way. That’s how I roll. I don’t like this, I disregard it. I won’t let it get through me. That’s my way of life for the past 22 years. Now I am facing a different light more blinding and scaring. I am not going to turn my back this time. Wont shrug off and pressed my most pokerish face to the world.
Oh pressure.
This time I will speak. Smile and say Hi to the world J.
