Melodrama
If i have some sort of identity to begin with i think im losing it.
"If you are not good enough for someone, you are way good enough for Him." -- saw this on gia's fb and i realized how unfit i am for everything. Perhaps all of the neglected and/or shrug off disregard for my existence is finally creeping out of the pandora's box. I mean i dont really care before if im not good enough, but since im trying so damn hard to expose myself in to THE World that normal people live in im a little taken aback -- do i have a place here even? is this even worth trying? Guess im not a fan of taking risks and i dont really care if i dont, really. Its just that im expecting too much now and if there is nothing to expect, please universe, tell me now.
I just need some reassurance, a pat on the back or something to that effect. Dumadrama ako. nakakainis. But sometimes it sucks to play a game alone. You wait for it to be done and in case you win, just then you tell the world of your triumph -- that is if anybody cares. But who fuckin cares? Please dont say God, thats a given. Just that its really hard to be this, in these shoes. ARGH.
"If you are not good enough for someone, you are way good enough for Him." -- saw this on gia's fb and i realized how unfit i am for everything. Perhaps all of the neglected and/or shrug off disregard for my existence is finally creeping out of the pandora's box. I mean i dont really care before if im not good enough, but since im trying so damn hard to expose myself in to THE World that normal people live in im a little taken aback -- do i have a place here even? is this even worth trying? Guess im not a fan of taking risks and i dont really care if i dont, really. Its just that im expecting too much now and if there is nothing to expect, please universe, tell me now.
I just need some reassurance, a pat on the back or something to that effect. Dumadrama ako. nakakainis. But sometimes it sucks to play a game alone. You wait for it to be done and in case you win, just then you tell the world of your triumph -- that is if anybody cares. But who fuckin cares? Please dont say God, thats a given. Just that its really hard to be this, in these shoes. ARGH.
