hurry.

It seems like im running out of good titles here. Anyway I just saw MY BENCHBOY came out of the library. He looks harassed though, must be the pressure from being a med student! I coudnt imagine myself in that. Thank God Im not rich! I wanted to look for something but I just cant find it in the net and damn those good looking asses! hahaha... whatever that means. A lot of people were transfering to lj, whats up with that??? what is with lj anyways? hahaha nonsense talks and ravings! hahaha... I think I should transfer there... NOT! Never, the wicked little bitch is there... hehehe... And what's with the... "You can buy it from us just like DRUGS!!!" Is that a deliberate thing to say on air!!! Whatever suits him... HE is still hot! FOREVER! hehehe...

And that guy on my English class, he still is gay. As if that's gonna change!

regrets

I just went to National Book store at west triangle and bought the wrong refill for my notebook! Where in the world could I get the Sterling refill??? Not at sm north, sm san lazaro not even there! Grrr... Tomorrow is the ending for Gokusen, and I'm going to miss Jun Matsumoto! hahaha... By the way there is this guy at our E**%#@h class and he does look good but the thing is when we heard his voice... sayang...

recovery...

This sucks! Everytime I decide to write something I just couldn't find the right topic. seventh day of the school day and I still don't know when I'll decide to wake up earlier. I usually get out of the house around 6:20am during high school, but now I just step out when it's already 10 minutes before 7... hahaha Damn, I love craming! And besides I have no reason to take my time in being mesmerized by the beautiful sight of the lover's lane... I miss the sweet smell of the grass and at the end, the good looking guy I am excited to see every freaking day! "MISS U BENCH BOY!" Kamille, Sam, Joanna and I just had a chit chat over at KFC, and forgot what the hell we are talking about! I still have no what so ever towards our professor, maybe because my so called Stoic Self is coming back to life!

They say clear thinking is of essential to a great writing! Whatever! I dont have that right now... I just wanted to bum around see the things go by without me in it... Why do I have to be there?

NO recovery, still...
I am getting psychotic everyday...
BEWARE!

hmm...

reason.

I haven't started a good post here because of the suck schedule that I have. Right after class you feel the tension in your stomach, the crunch sound and yes the wailing of it. So what do you do? you answer to its need and go right to the nearest food you can grab! And then what? you'll feel tired, sleepy and bored... then you go straight home! No more internet, or somethings on the side. haha... Kamille's calling me right now. I cant go home this early. haha... Fhau was with me yesterday and we went to 1611 with jon. She paid for our food and suit herself puffing all the cigars she could get!!! hahaha... loka she is losing her sense of taste, must be the nicotine! The orgs are now open for recruitment, join Yoga club! I feel blotted... have to stop this... anyways they are cutting the time now for the internet use. Suckers!

back to basics.

My brother just came here in Manila last Friday, so I just I'll stop the usual things I'm doing. Boring is the word to describe our time spent together, nonetheless I am happy to see him and all. I just wish I know him better. The last time I saw him was when my lolo died and that's about 4 fuckin years, so dont be surprised if we didnt had a blast seeing each other. And besides I dont really know them na as if I've lived with them... Sad. But fuck! what the... emo nanaman! Enough, haha... he walking tall and normal so that is important. Last thursday, when tita ave told me that ron is coming I felt excited and all, just like the last time they were here (lolo's burial) I felt like an ate once more. I felt needed and strong and matured and freaking nerves electrified! hahaha! and then once again when I am spending time with him I felt apart and far from everything he is. Guilty nanaman ako! hahaha... drama. I think he is coming more often so more time to appreciate each other. Pati si Ian, my youngest brother, hope I'll see him soon.

Sunday morning we went to ust chapel before he goes back to Olongapo. He was pretty amazed to look around uste, and I on the otherhand felt stupid. If I could just make them experienced the life I have right now. Stupid me.

Sessions
Fhau and I were supposed to go see bob and clint! Well, thanks to cigars she puffed before goin to bed, ayun headache effect tuloy! hahaha... It is kind of a blessing in disguise cause when I checked out who's on RT Sunday Sessions, it was Chicosci! hehehe heavy SEXY ROCK!!! The first song I heard from them was Paris and that was it! Fhau told me she couldnt undestand a word so when I checked the cd, well, it was just the cd that is disfunctional. It was ok when I heard it. hahaha I am pretty open to all sort of music e di naman freaking non-understandable ung song so it was ok. A little heavy and headbanging but it wouldnt blow my ears to tears of blood so its ok! Super understated but that is all I can say. I think I'lll check out their new album, more digestible, I guess. And yeah have I told you I have a crush on Miggy the first time I saw him so ok na un.

wow

wow
for the first time i've cleared my email in a breeze!!! i just got home for the 3 hour enrollment in a sweat box like place!
wow i cant open my supposedly post so i'll just start over again.

• wow did you know that Lance Bass and Dave Moffatt are gays???
• "Dianetic" got a great concept! but... you know nah.
• "Mary" from the Beautiful Machine Album sounds perfect for Brokeback MOuntain! I can actually hear it in the background while Jake speeds off to Mexico when Heath turns him down.
• "241" what a song and wtf is that video! Fhau said it was cool! i said it's suppose to be nostalgic and all. But well guess torrid kisses are one of those things one will surely miss.
• "Beer" by the Itchyworms, i heard that song even before they relaesed the album. Thanks to NU i was able to know that song! i thought the theme for the video is going to be serious this time. i should have known better!
• i have not yet practiced my violin for around 5 days now! bad bad bad bad me... my right thumb is callused. And two hours of playing only four notes is tiring especially now that I am suppoesd to know all the notes, well not till I get to see Ate Hanna. I'll see her sa june 19 pah!