FILIPINO.CHICOSCI.FRUSTARTION. & GREAT DISAPPONTMENT

reminisce un mayrics gig nila, hindi ito un pic namin pero wala pa kasi sakin un eh

So, ito ang daming frustrations!!! Yesterday was the day I've been waiting for, for the last 4 weeks!!! so meaning 1 month na yun! Eh tangina naman hindi naman sinabing 9am un start nila!!! Un magaling kong ex-classmate na nababaliw mode nanaman at paimportante eh di man lang sinabing namove un sched for the gig! I've txted her a hundred times tapos ano ba namn un isang txt na, "jen... namove un gig sa medAudi nah! and 9am un start!" Was that a hard thing to do??? And dont tell me na busy siya... lagi naman, pero pagdating sa ibang tao (un isang guy na di niya mapakawalan kahit pa lantaran na siyang inayawan) mabilis pa siya ke Superman!!! Damn!!!

9:00am (Tomcat office)

Elaine: If I'm not mistaken nakita ko un vocalist ng Chicosci sa Carpark!!!

Me: (talking to myself) aga naman! kadadating Q rin lang and dumaan din naman akong car park! E... bat di Q nakita???

Me: Naku andito na pala si Miggy!!!

Eliza: Sino un???

Me: Un vocalist ng Chicosci! Un gig na pupuntahan namin ni Fhau!!!

Eliza: Ang saya naman, nandito nah!

Me: (talking to myself, again) Eh bat ang aga!!!

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11:45 am (Tomcat office)

*Nag-CR kami ni Kamille sa Tomcat mismo, sa gilid nun katabi un area for the working student...

Student: Grrrrabe... nakapagpapic na ko ke miggy! Ang Gwapo!!!

*nanlaki yun mga mata namin ni Kamille! Na-excite kami!!!

Me: (talking to myself, again) Eh bat ang aga!!!

*kumain kami sa KFC nila joanna at kamille!!! NAEEXCITE sila for me!!! Ako din!

*Nagtxt si Fhau samahan ko daw muna siya, magsasanla! dali-dali ako! Nang nandun nako.

Fhau's txt: "mamamya ka na umalis sa Uste maliligo pa ko!"

* I went home, natulog konti... Naguluhan nako! BAKIT NANDUN SILA NG MAAGA??? imposibleng na-excite lang sila kaya ang aga, cause un friday night me gig sila sa 6underground! e malamang sobrang gabi na sila natapos dun!!!

*PANIC MODE!

*tinext Q si marice tinanoong un no. ni Kristel (commerce, since event nila un!)

Kristel: Hah??? e dito un sa medAudi kaninang umaga.

Me: sob...

*Sky falls down on me, how I wish it was literal so that I'll just have to bury myself from frustration...

*pumunta parin ako nun tnxt akoni Fhau... nanlalata. nagresearch ng 1 libro, kumain ng kung ano-ano, nagbalak manood ng sine pero di nakapagsanla kaya... uwian na.

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I bury myself reading the Filipino materials... me napakaganda akong nabasa!

Estudyante: "talaga bang epektibo ang Filipino sa teatro?"

Direktor: "Putang ina mo!"

*sabi ng director sa kanyang crew

Direktor: "Tignan nyo, epektibo ang Filipino sa teatro!"

-de quiro, Ang Kapangyarihan ng Wika, Wika ng Kapangyarihan

Sa dami ng nagyari gusto kong mabaliw... Sa lahat ng ayaw ko yung nabibitin ako! Sabihin niyong whatever... Whatever din kayo!!! Katulad nitong batang nasalikod ko, ang likot, gusto kong...

Ah... Breather.

I'm still trying to complete my Filipino paper and can't believe that I'm still blogging... hehehe. Something bothers me... It was marice latest post (special mention ba daw! hehehe) anyways, It's more of a jealousy thing. Wala lang, I know I've felt that a lot of times before when I was at Marice's age. (damn, is that a deliberate admission that Im old?, older than her okie) Wala lang, I've felt that for a million times and Ive somehow overcome that feeling. Actually, I think I felt a bit nervous that I'm, at some point, losing my emotions... my feelings and all. Since, fourth year high school I started to change myself to a what I called "better me"... And so I think! I'm stoic right now, not feeling a bit more of anything unless I'm alone, or at least at distance with a crowd. I think it's a self defense that I created. A strong one that nobody could easily break... It's not a pretention or an acting it's more of a calaused me... Jealousy, anger, pain, it's always around... it will never go... but, at least Ive done something to not feel any of this when I'm feeling I'm about to burst. Basta, labo...

I've texted ate last night...
She's fine and all.
I feel so far from her, more than just the distance that borders us. I felt that to anybody that is supposed to be close to me... I was never close to anybody, never will.

On the lighter side:
I still feel jealous about the fact that: "Parang Dyosa ang GF ni Miggy!" this is according to the male cult members of the Vampire Death Squad!

Synopsis.

12:30 am

I boiled the water for my green tea... I took a shower... then drink my still-hot-tea... it took me 20 minutes to do the drinking.

1:30 am

I was waiting for the Daily Myx Countdown's #1, it was Callalily. I was happy DaleCandela was so moved! hehe..

I tried to sleep, but I know it will take sometime to do that... I'm still under caffeine.

5:38 am

Should I come to my Natsci class??? My body and mind was still at low pace... Mind not functioning... PE.... PE.... PE.... I got to meet lianne at 7am, she's giving me the ipod for an earlier practice.

I was late... She did not come...

11:00 am

I have to go home (eat at home) to save a few cents...

12:05 pm

Kc and I practiced... It was great! Hopefully until Friday...

1:20 pm

I went at the Tomcat office... they make me do a synopsis for Tigerbeat...

2:55 pm

I now here at the Internet section of the library.

unwine.

The tests are finally over, but of course, not the problems...

"Foreseeing NGARAGAN 101"

Tomorrow will be the ultimate test of strenght and endurance!
So HELP ME GOD!!! I've seen signs or maybe I'm just to paranoid yesterday... My 200 bucks got lost at KFC, my things scattered on the maddy floor, and now our Natsci exam was cancelled due to the absence of Ms. Garcia, making it a burden on Friday! But I did asked God for some considerations... And our Finance Test was eliminated! Whuhu!!!

TOMORROW:

• LTS prelims
• Filipino recitation
• Filipino Quiz

*mind you, that Filipino is not just your ordinary subject! It requires reading 81 pages and remembering atleast unbelievable lenght of facts and history of the language may it be tagalog, pilipino, filipino etc...

• and of couse the Chicosci gig I'm dying to go to.

Why im I so infected, the way that we shine.

-Paris, chicosci