Ah... Breather.

I'm still trying to complete my Filipino paper and can't believe that I'm still blogging... hehehe. Something bothers me... It was marice latest post (special mention ba daw! hehehe) anyways, It's more of a jealousy thing. Wala lang, I know I've felt that a lot of times before when I was at Marice's age. (damn, is that a deliberate admission that Im old?, older than her okie) Wala lang, I've felt that for a million times and Ive somehow overcome that feeling. Actually, I think I felt a bit nervous that I'm, at some point, losing my emotions... my feelings and all. Since, fourth year high school I started to change myself to a what I called "better me"... And so I think! I'm stoic right now, not feeling a bit more of anything unless I'm alone, or at least at distance with a crowd. I think it's a self defense that I created. A strong one that nobody could easily break... It's not a pretention or an acting it's more of a calaused me... Jealousy, anger, pain, it's always around... it will never go... but, at least Ive done something to not feel any of this when I'm feeling I'm about to burst. Basta, labo...

I've texted ate last night...
She's fine and all.
I feel so far from her, more than just the distance that borders us. I felt that to anybody that is supposed to be close to me... I was never close to anybody, never will.

On the lighter side:
I still feel jealous about the fact that: "Parang Dyosa ang GF ni Miggy!" this is according to the male cult members of the Vampire Death Squad!