Elysium

Brattinela: Shed some sunshine

I am not so fond of giving every detail; hence, inexistence of thoughts.

Days and days of gloomy skies yet humid air… I am not a fan of Christmas Holidays… just this one since I’ve been pigging out nonstop, unlike the past ones were all I could do is sleep since we really don’t have much of a food to feast our selves with… losing every reason to get out of bed except when chocolates are still in the fridge… hehehe… since death comes we rarely got relatives and visitors, mainly because the ones they’re visiting are long gone… but that’s fine… we really are not people-people…

I am but a spoiled cow… or pig.

My tita would always say that… I never believed her just until last Sunday… we intend to buy stuff when I walked out twice inside the stores. I really don’t want to make a big deal out of this but whenever we are in the middle of buying I feel uneasy and irritated. It’s like a psychological problem I never address since I always thought it was normal, for me of course. So weird. And I always ended up not buying anything, or if ever I end up carrying shopping bags there would always be a great struggle. There I was empty handed… no new shoes, blouse, pants not a single thing! God! What is wrong with me?! To much issue I never like to deal with…

My brain cells are not in use.

Argggggggh… too much of “KATANGAHAN”… the exact thing that is going. I was raised to believe that at least I have all the capability of producing sense out of this freaking brain, but look and behold where I am at! Still stuck in dream land, ahhh… mind still in limbo. Or maybe I am just putting much pressure, still thinking I can save the world. Is saving the world a dream to be put in reality or what? Do I think too much of nonsensical stuff or what?

To loath is an unbreakable hobby of mine, still I never care.

I have a couple of people I hated for about a minute or so… then I refuse to think about their stupid antics and obnoxious acts… finally, the fool and I are at peace.

I want to be.

Rich. Brazilian model. Geek. Hot. Roadie of P!ATD. Classical pianist. Anime collector. Music Video Director. World traveler. Confidant of Pete Wentz (so we could kill ourselves together). Girlfriend of Bden. Lover of Miguel, forever.

The sun shines.

The moon keeps me awake, but he sun keeps me going.


singing to...
london beckoned songs about money written by machines – P!ATD