Elysium

a fool in April Morning Sky.
*hindi ito un band


and so i thought it was an april morning... last day pla ng March...

i arrived on time for the tvc shoot... 4am, March 31, 2008 at Provill

they were packing and all... while i was busy doing nothing. To make a reasonable excuse i cant afford to carry those equipments so i just stayed silent ... for about 12hrs!

Alam nyo ba ang feeling ko?

Feeling ko multo ako! I was more like petrified actually. I cant move for some reasons and and yes even my lips...

By noon i realized that im not going to pursue production... Actually matagal ko na din itong sinasabi. That's the reason why i dont what to have my internship at abs or gma... Pero putang ina at ano itong pinasok ko?

After a while maam kata told me to get the client from the main office of san miguel. It was a relief! Im finally getting my ass off the location. I cant stand the silence anymore.

I DONT WANT TO BE A PRODUCTION ASSISTANT! DANM IT!

lunch time the crew were telling me stuffs how my PA got his job and sooner or later i could be like him! Ayoko nga eh! I was there actually to learn how a tvc is done but not to be a PA.

Sabi ko nga kay maam kata gusto ko sa creatives ng agency! tell you honestly I cant stand doing something that is not of my concept. Ayokong sumunod sa Agency... sa Client. I know i wont get anything kung ganito ako but i just cant stand it.

Evening mamamatay na ako! I finally said what i want! I want to learn how to operate that freaking sosyal na camera! I want to be a DOP (director of photography) i discussed it with the asst cameraman and he told me to get an SLR first.

OK. So i got money issues, ok. being a DOP doesnt just requires you to have the skills but also the money...

Pano na?

Thank God mabait talaga sila! Tae gusto kong umiyak! by the time we moved on ako na ang pinag shot list(yes, parang rush tv days lang!) and then yun... I 've finally become part of it!

BTW there is this apprentice of maam shayne(DOP) na tulad ko ay dapat gawaran ng parangal sa katahimikan. Lunch time, I found out that he is a son of a director and after studying sa BIGFOOT (tama nag-aral sya dun!) Maam shayne become his mentor... SO naisip ko baka tahimik din ako eh dahil ganun talaga ang mga future director... nagmamasid lang... Ahahaha... KEME!

sorry kasi di ako mausisa... I think i got to polish that... anyways... We kind of talk kasi magkatabi na kami at narealize namin na pareho kaming apprentice but then after a while narealize din namin na tae at pareho kaming ayaw magsalita!

*me mga details na ayaw kong ikwento, basta. Alam pla ni Nins un kasi x katxt ko nun midnight at si fhau din alam pla*

We wrap up at 3:30am and i arrived at 4am.. 24hrs of not going to the CR. Yes mabuti ito.

8:30am NU107 texted me about my internship... I have to start tomorrow but i have to leave Provill for the whole of April!

I wanted to cry when i got out of the NU office! Putang ina! I want to work there! NU107 is My FREAKING DREAM SINCE God knows when... pero bakit ang daling sabihing gusto ko pang magProvill...

I totally lost my mind.

I have to do events sa NU!!! PUTANG INA ULI! EVENT EVENTS AT EVENTS! ano ba ang gusto ko? Parang nun nasa shooting ako wish ko magkaroon ng kausap about sa music na gusto ko pero bakit ko denicline?

Medyo na feel ko na rin kasi ang provill at last night, kahit bangag na ako i realized it was cool doing those things after all... Marami pang factors, one is strict un HR sa NU at madaming kemeng gusto... She is ok pero basta me parang mali...

Or BAKA GINAGAWAN KO NG MALI?

I get it! I want to be a DJ, not an event organizer... its ok pero un talaga un gusto ko sa NU. Grabe talaga!

I cant believe i said no to NU107!

Bad part there is... what if this decision is definetely wrong? Baka kasi 4hrs plang ang tulog ko kaya ganito???


i wasnt thinking about missing the part were i could see miggy chavez backstage... i was thinking more about myself... wow improvement!

FUTURE.

i still dont know. If i want to do film or anything related to that and not sacrifice a good salary dun na ko sa creatives ng agency or director of tvc... TAMA ba?

Directors Cut na bukas... Hay naku. MAGSASALITA NA AKO!