My Holidays...

I dont know where to start!
Yesterday was mica's debut and we have to sweat all out to be at our best, or not!
I'm in the compshop right now and I just finished reading all the needed reading in blogs... including some girl... I feel sick! I can't believe I'm actually reading her entries and then feel so damned in life. This is like suicide with a twist. I'm damned, it's holiday and I'm not suppose to feel this way. Fhau is leaving today for Dagupan and I won't be having somebody to listen to all my peevish talkings. I wish I'm at school, in highschool so I could make them all listen to all the hardships (those little things that I consider) in life. I never had a happy holiday... i can't believe that it's just now that I realize it. I don't have my family, now my friends... I'm hoping that by the end of my school days I'll be able to pull something out of my closet and let them celebrate a typical holiday with me. I thought I'm used to it but everytime this season comes it's like sometings creeping on the back of my neck reminding me of my losts... Now I understand how people can get so happy when they have somebody (no, not lovers!). When I'm at Mica's party I could see in her eyes things that I wish I'll be having whenever I'm around with my family... Well, I guess I have to wait some more years before it happen. It will happen, or not!
I don't know what happened to me after reading that bitch's blog! Ok, I'll stop calling her bitch for my new year's resolution... maybe slut!!! haha...
Ok, I'll be good... promise...

Bad impact of some blog... Maybe just envious, or not. It has to be over by now...
Just feeling Nostalgic!!!