It’s 5:25 pm in the last Friday of 2005. I’m not in the computer shop, for this ending entry of mine in my blog needs some more substance and all. I don’t know if I’ll achieve that here at home. I guess you just have to read it to find out.
They say that the best is always saved for last, well, not this year. I know I have been complaining all along my college life. I have the pettiest things in a list that I consider suppressing and of course depressing. One, I’m in a school wherein you don’t have a reason not to be gregarious, and yes, pretentious comes along with it. Numbered are the people who really know me in my class. Basically because I don’t think they have the need to know me. But this is self-mortification. Here you need not be independent. You always have your classmates whether you like it or not. I want to look at it on the bright side but just can’t find the occulted view of it. For once some of my block mates, as not expected, are still a bit attached to there old ways. I’m not going to expound on this for this is just a mere self opinion in which I might disturb the placid life of theirs. I think my opinions are derogatory and have no basic facts to support it, but hey it’s democracy we’re living in. Ok, guess I have to move on and be mature enough to stand for my decisions. I’m not going to do about anything that doesn’t concern me. If you are to do something, do it. And for God sake, don’t blame me for not doing anything about the stuff that is assigned to you. I’ve been in the business for a couple of years and I know how to deal with it single handed. All I can give is advices, which I think is very much needed as I see it. Be systematic! If you know that word than you’ll survive your life that you considered damned. Sorry, but I can be brutal you know, especially if I see that your such a wimp.
So there guess I’d poured it all out.
You see, if I’m not happy in school I’m not happy at all. My school is my life. My classmates are my obstacles and rewards. My job is to balance them all and try to unlock the beauty of being a friend, a tormentor, and a student. I really don’t have a life at home in which if my tita found that one out will be very disappointed in my ungratefulness. I apologize for that. I know that they tried and still trying their best to cover-up for my flaws. Guess what, it’s starting to unravel itself. Hmmm… that one is scary.
At least I had a great first three months. I just hope that by next year I’ll be able to pull it off and be the best that I can be especially considering that these next three years will be my last and will serve as my backbone for my future.
Sorry for having such a boring life. Maybe I’ll not be like this if my cellphone wasn’t stolen and I’ll be as sociable as I used to be.
Just finished listening to Gemini (remastered version)…
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