Too much is bad enough.
I just received a text message from my bestfriend and she was asking why on earth that I seemed busy? "BUSY BA KO?" I dont think i'm busy... what I think is that I'm not doing fine with my schedule. I guess I really have to adjust to the work loads that I'm getting... Really, Im not busy. My house is a five minute trip from school (as long as there is no traffic). But really i'm not busy! I'm having a worry moments with my grades this semester. I dont think I'll fail but what I think is that I'm not going to do fine! Grade conscious??? Yes I'm not denying that. I wont deny, cause I feel the need to be conscious!
Whirlwind has taken me. So abruptly. Still taking me to a place, then to another and another. Never stop!
I do have a suicidal tendency. And I'm thinking of logical reasons to explain this to anyone that would soon barricade me from doing so. Well, Im not going to die soon! You wish!
"The Ethics of Writing" a seminar for Writers or whoever, I think is still going on at the TARC. I just attended the morning session due to pe class, anyways. They actually disccussed the blog thing and the new media introducing a more community kind of way for writers, though you should know the essential blogs from not... and so on... I actually had fun being their, with all the great writers! Imagine that! F Sionil Jose was there and many more! HAHAHA!
Get this! According to one of the speakers it is said that before, libraries are astoundingly noisy! There is even an instance where Saint Augustine was then shock seeing Saint Ambrose reading in silence! People then speak out what they are reading for them to effectively put things on their mind. See! So next time you are being scolded by the librarian say that you just have to read it aloud in order for you to grasp everything immediately. Dont use this if you are just talking non sense though!
My heads is spining fast. Aircon, blazing heat from the sun, aircon, this is too much for me! Why on earth did they ever built an aircon if one cant adopt to their habitat? Why? Cant they?
Eh putik! Nasa Pilipinas ka tapos ini-aircon ka tapos lalabas ka tutuong mundong mainit! Edi nagkasakit ka! Hayop! Isa pa! Sabi nila kaya me aircon kasi di na tulad ng dati na malinis pa ang hangin! E bakit di ba me pollution din sa aircon?! Kung walang pollution di ganito kainit sa pilipinas! Ok ang klima natin, epal lang talaga ang ibang taong gustong kumita! We are born to adopt to the environment eh! Necessities!
Sorry kung bitter!
It just dawned on me that a lot of things were being manipulated by a small but terrible group of assholes! Hai.
Sabi ni Ate Cess Aktibista daw ako! Pwede daw ako sa UP! HAHA! Gusto ko sila. Ayaw nila ako!
If I do good will I die soon? If I do bad what then?
I DONT BELIEVE IN KARMA! It's just that the word has been missed used and abused! Why?! Because karma is not the thing that would cause you losing your wallet because you didnt give a peso to a beggar! It's not the thing that would cause you to slip in a crowded place because you said an offensive word to a person, it is not the thing that would cause you to lose a game because you failed to be a friend! Karma is something that you would get afterlife! Next life that is, according to the Buddism and Hinduism religion. First, Im a member of any of these sect second there is no afterlife! You see! People get to think that karma is something that would happen immediately after a certain act! The truth is, it is not! Basta!
Pasensya kung masyadong epal itong post ko!
PS. Oh yes I have something good to post here! I already have a Sony miniDV!
Saturday, November 25, 2006
Sunday, November 19, 2006
Overflowing of thoughts.
I'm paranoid! Yes paranoid at the fact that I just can help but be the one thing that I want to be. FAST. Im not satisfied with myself I dont know why. Im simply pathetic I guess. Yes I know Im pathetic but not definitely understanding myself. Pathetic.
Im Happy... Im suppose to be happy. I got what I want. Im happy. Momentarily.
Ang dami kong na-realize.
You can get the best things even if all you do is to do nothing. It comes you see.
Heat of the sun can do no harm to me.
I can rely on a lot of person.
My bestfriend has a warm heart. She does it in little yet surprising way. (Bait mo dude!)
I've done the Vampire Sign!
Mahal magPE ng Basketball!!! (hello sunblock!)
Masaya ang basketball!
Marunong akong magSHOT! (Sinapian ng Tigers!)
Ang ganda ng USTe! (Vampire's nightout.)
My HOTNESS... *more
Now I know why Im feeling that distant discomfort. I cant be happy forever even if I want to. It comes and goes and now that I have that moment I dont know how I can make it stay forever.
I guess it's like having a lover... you know you cant have him forever yet you just cant help the fact that it wont last... even if you know. You know.
Im Happy... Im suppose to be happy. I got what I want. Im happy. Momentarily.
Ang dami kong na-realize.
You can get the best things even if all you do is to do nothing. It comes you see.
Heat of the sun can do no harm to me.
I can rely on a lot of person.
My bestfriend has a warm heart. She does it in little yet surprising way. (Bait mo dude!)
I've done the Vampire Sign!
Mahal magPE ng Basketball!!! (hello sunblock!)
Masaya ang basketball!
Marunong akong magSHOT! (Sinapian ng Tigers!)
Ang ganda ng USTe! (Vampire's nightout.)
My HOTNESS... *more
Now I know why Im feeling that distant discomfort. I cant be happy forever even if I want to. It comes and goes and now that I have that moment I dont know how I can make it stay forever.
I guess it's like having a lover... you know you cant have him forever yet you just cant help the fact that it wont last... even if you know. You know.
When i leave
I wanna wait for the silence
You gave me all you’ve got
And now i stand here waving to you
But still you smile
You’re still looking back
Maybe i just wasn’t kind enough
I’m fighting urges to fall again
Yet i stumble
Yet i stumble
-Seven Black roses (Chicosci)
I wanna wait for the silence
You gave me all you’ve got
And now i stand here waving to you
But still you smile
You’re still looking back
Maybe i just wasn’t kind enough
I’m fighting urges to fall again
Yet i stumble
Yet i stumble
-Seven Black roses (Chicosci)
Saturday, November 11, 2006
I see MYSELF! Blurred no more...
I think I am about to cry right now. Well inside I guess. I mean... cry for the happiness I'm feeling. I think yesterday was one of the most MEANINGFUL, HAPPY, and ALIVE days of my life. I'm finally seeing myself more than I used to.
Yesterday when Loreto got the question for our speech activity "What is the most alive time of your day?" An answer immediately pops in my head...
After class.
I was not able to attend the live airing of TNU (Tomcat News Update) due to reasons I can't mention here cause some people might kill me!
Let me tell you instead of the reasons why I consider November 10, 2006 as one of the most wonderful moments in my life!
I felt something or should I say someone being miserable in the air. Well, I'm not happy because something's wrong, but whatever! I told Sam I wasn't happy! But I was freaking giggling and laughing and my lips were curved althrough out and... OK! I dont know if I'm happy but well, I shouldn't! Have you ever felt that you should be feeling bad for something but you just cant deny the happiness in your face. That's that!
It's undeniable!
When I was on my way to somewhere... I received a text message that says that I passed the first interview for my scholarship. Now that's reasonable.
Lestat was sizzling hot! Crawl on me baby.
5:50pm we were on the way for the UAAP something, I cant believe I forgot this (the event) I just finished the script and this is all my idea and ahh... brains. Well to continue, we immediately went on the search for the Studio 23 Staffs who by the way is responsible for the event. Ms. Mafe a graduate of UST was the one in-charge for the event and well it took us sometime to interview her and all! hahaha... It was our first and Ate Cess (our Executive Producer) was not even there, so bare with our hesitations and all. They are so accomodationg hahaha! We even got our seats at the guest area (backstage) even if it was not a Tomcat thing! When Ate Cess saw us at the guest area she was like "Bakit nan dyan kayo?" we just laughed and and said "Ma-papel eh!" And anyways, the Tigers were there but I'm not really excited about that! What I'm so loco was the fact that I was able to get the video camera for myself and do my very first education on camera handling! I swear I felt like I'm so guarded by some force! I was able to get away with anything as long as I have the cam with me! We interviewed some Tigers, the SOCC, Ms. Mafe, students and we even ask Protein Shake and Callalily for some TOMCAT advertisements or whatever you call it! this is what we asked them to recite simultaneously:
"Hi! We're _________ and you are watching Tomcat!"
When Kean first read what we wrote he's like "Hi! We're 'BLANK' and you are watching Tomcat!"
What the??? He is fun though! They are fun, I must correct myself. Aiya's the best even if we haven't had the luxury of time in having them on cam. They so ROCK! Well, I guess that's the thing, they just born to rock! They had picture taking, Well, Yes including me. I dont know but I just like the feeling of being behind the cam. Haha. Ayaw ko pa eh dalawa nga un pic ke kean! Putik! It's not of my doing, I just have to wash my hands on that! hahaha! And Yes before I forgot I had the chance to go on stage, every performance, YEAH! ON STAGE! With the cam-my enthusiasm-passion for music and craze feeling! If you happen to be there I was the one at the left constantly getting shots of the bands and the crowd! Hahaha! Ang Saya!!! Ate Jamie even sprung out of nowhere at my side and was telling me "Oh kuha ka ng Crazy shots, (then she demonstated) this is your training for Tomcat!" She even asked me to go infront! (Sa stage, harapan ni Kean!) Men I can't do that it's like... I never done this before and that's not a Tomcat event... we are there just to get news! (MA-papel nga eh!) So I decide to keep my position, side of Tatsi. The shots were... I dont really know but Hell I tell you I had that momentum... I just can't stop! It's crazy! When Aiya was doing her dance it was like I want to dance with her! On STAGE! Well I was on stage! hahaha! I did horrible stuffs mind you, like almost losing my balance twice at the stairs when I was to get shots from Protein Shake! And I stupidly forgot to get shots of the banner of Studio 23 and the event which is really plain StupiD and unforgivable! Ahh my very first. haha!
I'm hoping I'll get to redeem myself on the 29th if I'm lucky enough to cover that concert thing and I hope it's going to be free for us, since the tickets gonna cost much!
Im Alive...
Im Alive.
p.s.
thanks to Ate Badeth for being the ate!; to joanna; to jane, which I think should thank me (TNU) more! Joke lang!; To Kuya for lending us extra batteries for the cam and for give us hope! Kita kits on the 29th, ay sa monday pala!
Yesterday when Loreto got the question for our speech activity "What is the most alive time of your day?" An answer immediately pops in my head...
After class.
I was not able to attend the live airing of TNU (Tomcat News Update) due to reasons I can't mention here cause some people might kill me!
Let me tell you instead of the reasons why I consider November 10, 2006 as one of the most wonderful moments in my life!
I felt something or should I say someone being miserable in the air. Well, I'm not happy because something's wrong, but whatever! I told Sam I wasn't happy! But I was freaking giggling and laughing and my lips were curved althrough out and... OK! I dont know if I'm happy but well, I shouldn't! Have you ever felt that you should be feeling bad for something but you just cant deny the happiness in your face. That's that!
It's undeniable!
When I was on my way to somewhere... I received a text message that says that I passed the first interview for my scholarship. Now that's reasonable.
Lestat was sizzling hot! Crawl on me baby.
5:50pm we were on the way for the UAAP something, I cant believe I forgot this (the event) I just finished the script and this is all my idea and ahh... brains. Well to continue, we immediately went on the search for the Studio 23 Staffs who by the way is responsible for the event. Ms. Mafe a graduate of UST was the one in-charge for the event and well it took us sometime to interview her and all! hahaha... It was our first and Ate Cess (our Executive Producer) was not even there, so bare with our hesitations and all. They are so accomodationg hahaha! We even got our seats at the guest area (backstage) even if it was not a Tomcat thing! When Ate Cess saw us at the guest area she was like "Bakit nan dyan kayo?" we just laughed and and said "Ma-papel eh!" And anyways, the Tigers were there but I'm not really excited about that! What I'm so loco was the fact that I was able to get the video camera for myself and do my very first education on camera handling! I swear I felt like I'm so guarded by some force! I was able to get away with anything as long as I have the cam with me! We interviewed some Tigers, the SOCC, Ms. Mafe, students and we even ask Protein Shake and Callalily for some TOMCAT advertisements or whatever you call it! this is what we asked them to recite simultaneously:
"Hi! We're _________ and you are watching Tomcat!"
When Kean first read what we wrote he's like "Hi! We're 'BLANK' and you are watching Tomcat!"
What the??? He is fun though! They are fun, I must correct myself. Aiya's the best even if we haven't had the luxury of time in having them on cam. They so ROCK! Well, I guess that's the thing, they just born to rock! They had picture taking, Well, Yes including me. I dont know but I just like the feeling of being behind the cam. Haha. Ayaw ko pa eh dalawa nga un pic ke kean! Putik! It's not of my doing, I just have to wash my hands on that! hahaha! And Yes before I forgot I had the chance to go on stage, every performance, YEAH! ON STAGE! With the cam-my enthusiasm-passion for music and craze feeling! If you happen to be there I was the one at the left constantly getting shots of the bands and the crowd! Hahaha! Ang Saya!!! Ate Jamie even sprung out of nowhere at my side and was telling me "Oh kuha ka ng Crazy shots, (then she demonstated) this is your training for Tomcat!" She even asked me to go infront! (Sa stage, harapan ni Kean!) Men I can't do that it's like... I never done this before and that's not a Tomcat event... we are there just to get news! (MA-papel nga eh!) So I decide to keep my position, side of Tatsi. The shots were... I dont really know but Hell I tell you I had that momentum... I just can't stop! It's crazy! When Aiya was doing her dance it was like I want to dance with her! On STAGE! Well I was on stage! hahaha! I did horrible stuffs mind you, like almost losing my balance twice at the stairs when I was to get shots from Protein Shake! And I stupidly forgot to get shots of the banner of Studio 23 and the event which is really plain StupiD and unforgivable! Ahh my very first. haha!
I'm hoping I'll get to redeem myself on the 29th if I'm lucky enough to cover that concert thing and I hope it's going to be free for us, since the tickets gonna cost much!
Im Alive...
Im Alive.
p.s.
thanks to Ate Badeth for being the ate!; to joanna; to jane, which I think should thank me (TNU) more! Joke lang!; To Kuya for lending us extra batteries for the cam and for give us hope! Kita kits on the 29th, ay sa monday pala!
I go insane without you near me - Callalily
Sunday, November 05, 2006
THE BEST SEMBREAK EVER!!!
Bakit??? Wow! Grabe I've done tons of things... well not really but atleast i'm not having the usual wake up- kain-tulog! I've done reading three books(vamp chronicle '7 more to go!'), watch season 1 of 'The O.C.', hang out with my little bro, do tomcat stuff, visit my lolo and tita dolly last Nov. 1, watch chicosci live "me pic kami at me autograph ko sa bag!!!". Even if I wasnt able to do the evil deed that's been planned, atleast I've done better things than just sleeping all day! hahaha. We even shop at 168! ANG SAYA NG SMUGGLED GOODS!!! hahaha! OK so that's bad... but hell!!! I was able to "tawad", not me actually but my tita, a yellow sweater from P380 to P270!!! What a bargain! Meron pa!
- bag = from P270 to P200
- slippers = P180 to P150
- shoes = P470 to P400
Ang saya! Shopping nah!!!
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