Elysium

Coffee Breaks

im feeling a bit weird after taking that coffee mix without much of my usual milk... my head feels small, can fit a matchbox... enough to excuse me from doing stupid things... i should be dringking more and more coffee without any reason... with just a little choco and milk but more coffee...

i want to fly away from where im sitting. clicking a few buttons on this keyboard i wish to transfer somewhere else... where nobody cares and nobody... nobody.

i miss Pete W. He reminds me of the actor playing Samo's role. He has that same sharp bones on his face. I miss Rock. i miss hating without reason. I miss... I missed. That dark room with all the smoke to breathe. The ashes... The little confining room. I miss the time that im missing it. Now no more of that. Im more happy than expected. Im actually happy that im happy. Are you happy?

I want everybody to see want im seeing. I want them to step back a little. sleep a little. pat them on the back and say: "you are all doing a great job, just dont forget we are humans feeding on emotions."

I dont want to delete a single memory. I feed on them. Sad, glad, stoic or plain love. I hope you all do the same.

Im looking at the picture right now. Its crowded and blurred, defocused.

Im happy/you are not. Lets give ourselves a lifetime to change and experience. Will you do that.

Murder Hate.