Elysium

Youth






"Youth: I think its doing something no one has ever done... or use all your energy until you can no longer go on."




So i decided to end my 20th breathing years with Nobuta wo Produce! I remember how much this drama changed me the first time i saw it... (i wasnt into Yamapi's body, not until i saw his AnAn pics, a was a bit wholesome back then...) i've said it before and i'll say it again... everybody should watch it, take it seriously and reflect on every single scene!
Our life is one big messy high school experience that everybody should put up with, but if you have real friends that believe, listen and make you change yourself for the better... then life wouldnt be that traumatic!




I was a bit down these past few days... i think its everytime my birthday comes up and i've been like this since God knows when... i really want to forget my birthday actually, it's easier now that its on a sembreak so nobody brings it up. (i even remember a time when i have to close my fone just to not have a birthday message! How anti-social of me!) I really cant remember the last time i celebrated it and everytime people greeted me i really dont know what to reply or to react, it kinda feel ackward. Then i saw the scene where Shuji tries to hide his birthday... i think understand. I really dont see the importance of a birthday (I actually feel weird saying this...) i remember having a party when i was younger, grade school i think... the traditional parties at home... spaghetti, chicken lollipop, super-red mini hotdogs on sticks, cakes that only the flower decors i eat, party hats... But no matter how much i look back i cant remember the people in my party anymore, except for my family of course. The thing is i dont know them and probably they dont know me anymore... If im going to have a party i wanted it with people i know trust and care about vice versa... again i doubt if they still know me!
But seriously, I think the most important would be the day when you finally made a marked into this world. Ok enough of that!

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lets go back to Nobuta...

i was i bit worried that i cant really apply this youth thing but i guess as long as you're doing something great and giving all that you can... you still qualify as youth!

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PRESENTING: Nobuta Wo Produce Quotes!
"Since you cant choose doesnt it mean you dont want either one?"
"What's giving up from the beginning?"
"Dont decide, like you're not gonna change, before you even begin!"
"The inside doesn't matter so much. If everyone says she's pretty, then she's pretty. If everyone wants something, the price goes up. There are people who made the world work like this."
"No one in the world has confidence. Everyone's afraid. Everyone's so obsessed with themselves, that they have no leisure to think about others. So you dont have to be afraid. First forget about wanting to look good, let everyone know you're there!"
"Fun times... sometimes you dont realize they are fun until much later."
"Right now, the person's hand that you hold... the chance of you having met that person... is a miracle. Even when you go into the light dont let go of that hand."
"If at least one person knows the truth, that's enough."
"As long as we're married we can meet at least a few times in a year... knowing that someone knows everything about me... existing somewhere in the world, is good enough."
"I'm in a world like this. [money box] 10,000 is 10,000, a 100 is a 100, a yen is a yen. It's all arranged, there's a barrier. A 10,000 cant go in the 100 or yen... the 10,000's all similar ones gather together. Such a boring world, You dont have to come here. You can just stay as a dime on the street."
"To be disliked, to be hated by others... is scary. "
"It doesn't matter whether its true or not. Its only if people will believe you or not."
"Even if you fall to the bottom your life is not going to end. Even if you fall it will go on. Life wont end easily."
"If you are alive, you will have some terrible days... and also wonderful days! Thats what life is!"
"You dont believe it because its the truth, but it becomes the truth because you believe it."
"No one knows the truth so you choose which one to believe."
"If you go to a place that you regret; as long as someone's there for you, you can always come back"

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actually i wanted to be a dime on the street... i wonder if thats possible... Shuji was right no one can decide on one's future in a week, i have to start now!